it’s sunday night

 

shortly before a holiday 

 

sitting here thinking about everything 

 

im finally realizing that im moving towards a 

 

place where i’ll finally be happy

 

maybe this feeling is temporary 

 

maybe my depression will flair up again in 

 

a few days

 

but im realizing one thing

 

i’m finally learning to put myself first 

 

no more being pressed for a relationship 

 

no more putting someone who doesn’t care for me ahead of myself 

 

when the first person comes, i know i’ll be ready

 

but this isn’t about them

 

it’s about me

 

and i’m realizing my true self

 

this is real

 

this is me

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and i now i know where exactly i’m going